Now, Whatdya know.

Hey guys, what's happenin (:

This post was going to be about experiences and how many I have had especially in the last month. But one person changed that whole post and moved it into my Yearly Reflection.  Yes I am doing one this year too!!

Instead, this post is going to be about my fourth subscriber. I do not know them in any way, shape or form but I am very VERY grateful that they took the time to click the subscribe button.

When you are doing Youtube and when you are making videos, there are usually many doubts that go through your mind. Who will watch this? Will anyone watch this? How will it make them feel? Will they understand? And most of all will they LIKE it? We all want to feel liked, and even though this Youtube thingy ma bob is a hobby and something that I really like doing, sometimes I feel if I am getting anything out of it.

Ya know what, just literally a couple of minutes ago my question was answered! I reached somebody out there. Somebody took a chance with me and I am so so grateful for that.

Even though sometimes things don't look like they are changing just give them time, they need time to mature and evolve and make a larger imprint. I have 13 videos I think now and finally somebody who I do not know subscribed. You know what? You learn a lot from it too. I am getting quicker at editing, I know how to edit photos now and well I know more than I did before because I gave it a shot. The thing is sticking with it. I am here to stay baby!

SO THANK YOU EVERYBODY

Here is the link to my channel
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9-D5291DyVpVrhv-pijCYA 

My  videos have links to everything else I do via social media.
Anyway Be The Best You Can Be and Keep Smiling  xox

F.A.M.I.L.Y

Family

Let us just take a moment here and think of the depth of the word. Family. Many correspond the word to 'Blood is thicker than water' but I think different. Sure...family will always stick around and friends come and go whenever they please, but in that phrase nobody said anything about blood. Did they?

OMG. no joke I took a second to think of what was coming next and of course I was scrolling through Facebook and this is what popped up, first on my feed.

Coincidence? I don't believe in them! Hahaha

I was going to say exactly that.  What are the characteristics that bring up the word family? A special bond like no other? People who support you and always want the best for you? People who want to see you happy? People who love you. And that's just it.

I love my family, we may fight sometimes but when the going gets tough they are right there to help me pick up the pieces. They are my light, they are my armour even when I'm most stubborn to not take it, they are the wall that I subconsciously place up. It's them.  But my family extends more than what I may be told is my family.

My sister- official in my eyes and in her mum's eyes- my sister, Oriana. I've hurt her before but we have gotten through it. I don't know how she does it but even though there are times when I think I am the worst person on Earth, she can see through that. She sees something in me that baffles me.  I did my first public vlog today (I will post up and notify once it is uploaded)  and to be totally honest with you I was shit scared because I was  afraid someone was going to complain or something like that. But she gave me strength. It is the small things that count. She went along with it too! She didn't shy away from the camera and it just gave me that much more confidence.

Although she studies on the other side of the country I know I can tell her anything and I know she is always there for me. ALWAYS. 

Her family too! I can feel truly comfortable in there presence, just like family. Her mum treats me like her daughter, even if I have the smallest of scratches from the dog she gets the icepack out and makes me rest my leg on the couch. We are Italian...can you tell haha.

Family, its not who you are related to, it is who you relate to most.

Be the Best You Can Be and Keep Smiling (:

P.S. This is a video I just uploaded today, I think you all can relate too it. If you have any questions or comments make sure you write them down. I wouldn't mind it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKipbLri-Ms&list=TLN3cfgSlpkyV8WnW9o-fmDRI8NKQqGQTv

Run In the Runners Shoes

Hey Guyyyys,

So I'm quite excited because I found out my camera, just my small stills camera does actually shoot is HD whereas my camcorder doesn't and I can't wait to start shooting with better quality.
An update on my channels, I did upload my Footscray City Films Major the other day on my second channel; you can access that via my main channel and it will be under Featured Channels.

If you have any tips on how to make any of what I'm doing better, I am all ears, and as of today I am starting up a vlog to get some variety into my channels.

Today I'm going to be talking about Persistence. Its a huge word with a lot of weight, it means something different to everyone. Anybody can think back to a time where it means the most to them. For me persistence is every day, I've had to have it at a young age. Persistence to strive better, persistence to get better grades, persistence to show all those doubters what I am really made of.  I remember in year 8 I wanted an acting agent (yeah i did some stuff- mostly extra) and my parents wouldn't allow it. I persisted for TWO years, I gathered all the facts, the business end of it as well so when my parents had questions I could answer them and it only left them to say yes.

When I was in year 8 I auditioned for a school musical, safe to say I was pretty shit but it only persisted me to try even harder the next year. In year 9 I became part of the Ensemble for Beauty and the Beast and I even scored a main character in Rebel without a Cause! From then on each audition I just gave it all I got and in the end it paid off.

Through out my life I've persisted a lot. My motivation are my doubters. They are the fire!

But it really has got to do with this youtube stuff. I have been working really hard trying to figure out the best channel art that will capture my channel the most, the best links, how to do a logo and backgrounds because although my channel isn't that serious, I want to be taken seriously. I want to bring some entertainment to people- even though some may call me narcissistic. So many can't see the long hours I put into it, trying to learn how to do things, and what things are effective. I am persisting though. I know like this blog not many people actually follow it. But I have hope that one day people will like it. It honestly brings a smile to my face when I have even 1 view...am I sad? haha

Anyway I hope you can help me out, I'm not looking for fame or fortune, I'm just trying something out and decided I actually like this.

Be the Best You Can Be and Keep Smiling (:

IM ON YOUTUBE

Hi Guys,
I haven't been on this in agggges. I know. i knooooow. I am such a slacker. A flaker, and sooo so much more. But you know what, I am not giving up on this. If I give up I don't get satisfaction and all those people who did not believe in me, saying that this was just a phase would get that satisfaction.

I don't want that. Do you?

Besides, to be totally honest with you I started listening to people that I thought were like God...ha...ha. Not really, but I did have high regard for them. They thought all of this stuff was narcissistic. Well it is safe to say that they are out of my life now.

Sad. Sad. But also quite healthy. I am much happier, I have a much clearer head and I just wanna keep blogging. I don't care if I whine but I know people will read this and take something away from it.  I can't say I am a different person, but I can say I have opened some places within myself that had not seen the light of day, making me shine like a better person.

I am healthier. I am happier. I am free.

I also have continued with Youtube, I had given up on it at one point. GAAAAHHH NAT WHY OH WHY. But Alas, my stubborness that actually helps at times....at times...has made me continue and keep trying. I do enjoy it and it is helping me edit and it is helping me keep on a point and not getting too complex with ideas. This will help me with my school films.

So I have two channels one; Nataleigh Maree which has singing, vlogs, tags and a bunch of randomness from yours truly. I really wanna take off in this social media stuff because it can help me in the future with my career and to be honest it is one of my passions. LET THE FIRE BURN. two; Nataleigh Elzein, it is going to turn into my Production Company (that needs a name). It has my films that I have made during Cert iv and will have all my films for y'all to view.

So please watch these links, let me know what you think. Give me tips. I AM THIRSTY FOR TIPS. TTIIIIIIPPPPSSSS. Hahmmm...anyways. The links are below, thank you for being a silent support but if you wanna talk I'm sure there is a way to do it on here.

I will also link you to my instagram, i do not have twitter or tumblr otherwise id have links for those too.
So it is safe to say I am staying around for a huge year next year and for the years to come. Love you all (whoever does read this).

Be a better you and keep smiling (:

http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9-D5291DyVpVrhv-pijCYA
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU2M2wQSzThWxRIf1mDD1hQ
http://instagram.com/nataleighmaree

Like Breathing Air

Hey there!
Just finished another shoot, was not as hectic although it felt like all the disasters that could happen, did happen.
My car for one has this dent and a few scratches from me misjudging the area to turn into. And then the guard underneath the car kind of fell apart because of someone who was not I tried to reverse it over a mound. Then there was hail the next day, a huggge hail storm it was quite beautiful, the next day was unusually smooth.
This post is about things happening for a reason.
I was in my car the other day and I had stopped at a stop light like every good driver would do. It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining and it felt like Spring. I was drifting my attention to this tree and I realised that that tree's purpose is to give out oxygen for us to live, to be a home for animals etc. Then I realised I guess everything has a purpose. For instance the aforementioned.  I realised if I didn't listen to people about driving forward at that angle and listened to my guard it wouldn't have happened, i realised that telling the truth to the parentals about it they ended up  not caring or being angry, that if it hails one day it will be sure to shine again the next, patience  is the key. Taking each step as it comes.
I went further into thinking about purposes, for instance people in your life, 'you are the choices you make' everything comes with a purpose. A person may be there to make you realise something about yourself or society itself, a person may be there in a time when you're in need. Life is a great mystery but it is a great learning curve in itself.
I laugh at the fact my life feels like a musical whenever I'm thinking of something a particular song comes on and it feels so right to be the backing track of the scene. It is there to remind you of something. To make you feel something. I don't believe in coincidence. That is just me.
The people you are friends with are there for a purpose. The people who stay still have their purpose to keep fulfilling or to fulfil.
It is only when you mess with this that things don't go smoothly.  When you take a friend out of the equation that wasn't meant to be and you doing it for the wrong reasons even though you think it is the right thing, this is when things don't go the way you once had thought.  Their purpose is still there.

My piece of advice? I know you didn't ask for it. Let it all be, let it all take its natural course and if someone is being shit to you and you do ignore them then it should feel right. If it feels wrong it most likely is wrong especially after a month. Go with your gut. If you care, you are caring for a reason and I personally don't think you should fight yourself about that even if you think caring for someone particular is stupid.

Man I think I just realised a few things for myself. Thanks guys! I'm such an idiot hahaha and hasn't seen what is right in front of me and has been blaring at me for three weeks.

Standing Upright

So...how are you all? *waits for reply*
...*crickets*
Yeahhh worth a shot. So yesterday and the day before I have been on set. I'm a film student to all who do not know. My role yesterday was to be a Second AD and the best part was connecting and talking with all the extras who I am supposed to be in charge of. I had chosen them from a website called Star Now and I must admit they were the loveliest bunch of people to work with. I'm usually First AD so Second AD was new territory for me but I soon realised that I am actually good at socialising. Whatta a skill you say? I KNOW!! I've always been shy with new people but I realised that I do have some of my dad's qualities; he can talk to anyone, and soon a stranger becomes a friend. I was also surprised how out there I was. It felt good to be genuine around people because they then see that you won't judge them. The other greatest part, especially last night was the weather.
The weather was absolutely calming. It didn't get cold, it was so comfortable and reminded me of a nice Summer night when my mates would take me for drives before I got my P's. It had that sweet smell in the air. It was great!
Unlike today...
Today is as gloomy as the dead of winter. I honestly don't mind Winter but I have been likening to this Spring weather, so to take a step back so suddenly was annoying. Also when you are in a bad mood the gloomy weather doesn't help. So I sat there and I thought what should I do.  I knew I wasn't in the mood to actually watch TV all day. I wanted to have a smile on my face and feel like I hadn't wasted the day. Instead I thought I'd exercise a bit. I had the time. As I was doing it since I haven't in a while I started feeling healthier, I had a healthy breakfast and lunch so I was feeling good about myself. They don't lie; endorphins are a great asset to have especially on days like this.
As mentioned in earlier posts I am getting over someone, and people out there I think it is safe to say everybody has been in this situation. Well that person called and it took all my effort to just let it ring. They called three times on Tuesday and once today so far. I was questioning my motive behind the cold front which wasn't good at all and I nearly called back but the restraint reminded me of the strong will power I used to have and being able to stick to my morals and values, well that just made my day a whole lot better. Although it hurt for that brief ten minutes, it was rewarding as the day progressed.
Be around those people who make you happy, and although he did, when I wasn't I was not happy and that my friends is not healthy!
Anyway enough for today. I hope everybody is having a great time, keep smiling because you deserve it.

Happiness is a CHOICE

So..I was in such a shit mood today, I forgot my good luck charm, I slept in...had to get up at 5am for a shoot and well the shoot was more stressful than it should be, me running around doing jobs that weren't mine.
Then of course when I got home I was gonna go onto my other blog, to blog about heartbreak and that even though it hurts, no matter how much it hurts, if it is good for you in the long run, it will be worth it and you won't have to feel that again from that person.
Then something happened: My friends Daniel and Lidija channel, they do videos to make people happy and it is called ThisWeekWe... https://www.facebook.com/pages/Thisweekwe/334950059983717  (The link). http://www.youtube.com/user/ThisWeekWe (Youtube link) Every week they make a video about something and the aim no matter how silly the content is to make people smile. If it weren't for their videos I would have been writing a depressing poem right about now and listening to sad ballads.
You know what I learnt, 'HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE'. It is a quote from  Daniel's inspiration, Shay, who has a youtube channel and blog every day. I like this quote also because it is so true. I chose  to be happy, I could have bathed in my own bleakness or I could try and be happy.
It goes hand in hand with my previous blog entry. If you want it, go get it and nobody is stopping you but you. It also has inspired me to get my youtube channel to keep going. I don't think I am that funny or am a good singer or have good advice but I try to give some sort of entertainment for people, my friends brought me that, sometimes you just need it. In return I knew they would get far with this because in the end it is a great cause. Who doesn't want to make someone else feel good? And you know what, without knowing it until told I made their day also.  It only takes a person to believe in the other because everybody wants to feel like they have a value.

I'm not sure if this made sense at all! But that is all I got for now. Short and sweet and probably not to the point  :p

SHOUT OUT TO LIDIJA MY TWIN AND DANIEL MY '"OLDER" BROTHER'

Turning a New Leaf

I'm back. I bet you don't believe me because I go away for so long. I bet you think that I don't hold to my word very much and you know what lately I've had a hard time doing just that.
Lately, I've just let it pass. I get angry and I get over it. That may be all good and well but if you are not giving yourself any self value you would probably stand up for yourself more. I feel like an elastic band that has been stretched way to much that I'm on the verge of snapping. This year has had its highs and lows but I think it just needs a new take on things.
I've had so much time to think lately and I knew I could never be truly happy when things were manifesting in my life that would drag me down and like any tumor you cut it out. The only way to get better. I realised that is what I have to do. Sure it will be painful and I know that, I've tried before. But all cuts will heal, no matter how deep they go.
Best way to let go of someone:
1. change their name to 'Do Not Answer' in your contacts (or delete them)
2. All your diaries put in a box somewhere you won't want to go back to
3.With all the photos put in a folder that says DO NOT OPEN
4. Ignore all contact.

Sure you are probably thinking why don't you just chuck it all out, but then you are chucking out a piece of yourself...I reckon take the lessons you learn and ditch the shit that came along with them.

I'm turning a new leaf, ripe and ready for Summer. Starting the blog again, is going to be a commitment which I will try harder to keep. I have my real friends and I've ditched everyone else. I have my family and I have my car to go anywhere and everywhere and most importantly I have my old self back.

It is good to be back!

Day 16

There can be no rainbow,
without a little rain.

Hi guys, I haven't blogged in what feels like forever. It seemed like winter had come not only literally but metaphorically. I was a little naive to believe that Summer can stay all year round, because Summer dries up in the end if there is no rain. Everything would be out of balance. We need a winter to realise how much we missed Summer. We need that sleet/rain/hail to appreciate those beautiful sunny days. So I do apologise for not blogging, so effectively as this is 365 days of Summer WE are up to Day 16. Some of you may say that I failed in some way but I don't think so, after all the realisations and experiences I have come out a more sunnier person.
So I work in hospitality right, last night one of my work friends was telling me about this regular customer. She had judged this customer to be a rough, inconsiderate person and effectively she was, though my friend who is the most kindhearted person I know made it her mission to change that. She pushed aside that judgement and every time the customer came in my friend would smile and ask how her day is. This lead onto more conversation then the next time they were well acquainted with names and now its just a regular thing. You know what? That customer is such a lovely lady, she just needed to be assured we'd give her the same respect.
Smiles can go a long way, I find that if I smile at someone they will smile back, not only is it courtesy but when they do do it you are giving them a hit of endorphins which makes them subconsciously happy. Like a suns beams, it doesn't stop at the source, light bounces and just imagine how many people that lady would smile at because my friend started it, it would have reached so many others. We can make a difference, if you focus on one part and don't get overwhelmed by the whole. That is what I believe anyway.
I also believe people should give others a chance, no matter how young they are. I was giving icecream to two girls and a mother. One girl didn't know what she wanted though she kept asking for the white one (lemon). The mother was unsure she'd like it so she kept saying choose something you know. Then the other daughter, this sweet little thing said the most logical thing. 'Why doesn't she just taste it?' Both the mother and I looked from each other to her and we just thought why didn't we think that. Give people a chance, it will surprise you what you can figure out.
Right now these blogs are pretty one sided, if anyone does read this blog I'd love to hear from you. You can ask, or say anything even if it means this blog is crap, 'cause I assure you that is your opinion and I will respect that, though I guess I would ask for a polite justification.

Day 15

Through humour, 
you can soften the worst blows that life delivers,
And once you find laughter, 
no matter how painful your situation may be,
you can survive it
~Bill Cosby

Yes yesterday I spoke about laughter but I think it really needs another post to drill it into your heads. Today I was in the midst of so many stress heads, and deadlines that it was intense. TAFE today was really really intense. Not many people can just look back at it and laugh, that is what I did. When the computer seemed to fail on us, I laughed at the inconvenience and how ironically convenient it is to make us even less able to work. I laughed at how we were so organised then right on the last leg of the race everything goes to the shitter. I just laughed because it is easier to do that, there is no use crying over spilt milk as the saying goes. Seriously less of a mess and when you laugh, you look with another perspective, you see clearer than what you would if you were fuming angry like some were and are less overwhelmed which would make it to achieve your goals. When I laugh, everything seems so much more simpler than before. It's just that quick deep breath that relieves any sign of stress and that is my secret to not getting stressed.
I don't know, I didn't really stress before, I took Year 12 really well, small steps instead of overwhelming myself with the bigger picture and I ended up really fine. More than happy with my result and where I am at the moment.
A lot of laughter got me through it, sometimes it may be manic but the point is that you are manipulating your mind to believe you are really happy...and that in itself produces endorphins which in the end relax you and make you genuinely smile.
That is my teaching for tonight. Smile and Laugh more than usual because there is never enough of it.
Trust me :)

Day 14

A day without laughter

Is a day wasted

~Charlie Chaplin

What can I say about today? I laughed a heck of a lot. Why? Cause it was beautiful. The sun, the warmth of the wind. It was everything and more. I had a really good feeling too. I don't know what it was but as soon as class started and we were all talking, I was laughing at nearly everything. It was a little ridiculous but it was one of those days. Started from the train ride and ended with a goodnight to the rents.

I'm not sure what it was, my cheeks began to hurt at work from all the smiling as well. I didn't really care what I was laughing at but the fact I wasn't taking life seriously for a day was just fantastic. New motto: Just laugh it off. And to be honest that is what I do all of the time. I trip I laugh, I hurt myself I laugh. It makes everyone see that its okay to laugh, I honestly don't care if they laugh at me as long as they are laughing.

It is the best medicine and instantly makes you happy. I don't understand the chemistry but endorphins are going crazy and that is all I care about.

Next time you are stressed laugh.

Laugh like you don't care, cause I know you care but it just is so much easier.

Day 13

Compliments cost nothing,
yet many pay dear for them.
~Thomas Fuller

Compliments. I'm not sure why people don't take them when they should. It is not that you are being selfish or you are up yourself, but the person is taking the effort and time to speak their good judgement. If you reject it, you are basically insulting their views and perspective. Compliments can make anyone feel good, even if it is praise for what you've done or how you look. Even if it makes you turn so red you have to turn around so people don't see you, or hide behind some timetables.
(If you didn't realise, that was me :) )
It is just lately that I realised that people actually notice me, I've had this preconception in the past that I can easily go unnoticed, I don't talk much in class, I achieve quietly, nobody knows what I'm good at until somebody like my teacher tells the whole room...(again went red) or I arise to the challenge. For instance, I had given timetables to everyone, prepared a pre-production meeting and ran that meeting, delegating and explaining everyones roles. Everybody said how surprised they were yet impressed by my effort. Clearly nobody saw it coming and do I find that insulting? Surely not. I've always liked to be the dark horse. And it is easier than saying it which makes me feel just awkward, I'm not one to display much.
But deep inside no matter how shy we are, compliments warm us up especially if they are genuine and I believe that more people have to be willing to take the compliments they get handed. They are very true. Everyone has to believe they are beautiful in every way possible.

Day 12

Music is a moral law. 
It gives soul to the universe, 
wings to the mind, 
flight to the imagination,
and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.

~ Plato

Music. It feels you with light, it feels you with love. The emotions become so powerful that it rides with the melody, chords or riff. It is a healing process and is with you on those days that nobody else its. It keeps you company on those long car rides and tells you how it is. Music is the only thing that can be so vulnerable but so powerful at the same time, it is brave, bold, delicate and so full of meaning that every perspective can relate to it. This is unlike of a human who sees from one perspective only.
Music doesn't care what the weather is like, it keeps playing no matter who is listening, it sticks to its own and doesn't care how it is judged. Music is always around, wherever you go either it be at home, in the car, at a festival or at a shopping centre. It is what builds relationships, it can also be there when a relationship is broken, but it is okay as Music understands.
Today my mate and I went driving a lot, music was on the whole time. I was testing my CD's as I do not have an auxiliary and I had put on Bon Jovi on the way to his so I kept with the classic rock them and tried my Pink Floyd...I skipped some songs to see what was on, to my surprise there was Elvis, The Monkeys, Michael Buble and some old Italian music, such old songs that I used to listen to ages ago with dad until being influenced by my time to basically get into pop. I was telling him this is what I grew up with and asked if he liked it. He said he does, that he finds it all quite good as he grew up with the 80s and likes 40-90s as well. I don't know, 'it was such a simpler time', the dancing was incredible back then and it was just so fun. My car had become that, that atmosphere had time travelled just through the tunes and it instantly made my day better to appreciate it with someone else.
I found that I have a 1 hour of greatest 60s hits or something, so that is next to try ;)

Day 11

No quote, no fancy story, just the fact that people care for me. The End

Day 10

The best things in life are unexpected
Because there were no expectations
~ Eli Khamarov

THIS POST IS FOR YESTERDAY

So there was this girl minding her business at work last night. It was quite hot and she couldn't be bothered to put any make up on as she was not trying to impress anybody there. Her hair as she later found out was not at its best, a little frizzy in areas and a little flat in others. She thought she looked not that great. She was expecting  a night of drunkards and smelling of beer, she was expecting a night of  constant banter and playful teasings from the snack bar boys. She was expecting the oldies to hit on her (which did happen).
What she did not expect in her pretty tiresome day was a boy to give her his number.
Now this sounds all very black and white but there was more to it then just handing over a piece of paper.
She was working, in the middle of doing a few beer orders when this young man approached. His burgundy snapback on backwards and she wandered why he'd have it on in the first place, it was hot and it was inside.
1                      INT: BAR- NIGHT                                                            1
Stuffy work environment, peak hour and GIRL is making a few orders
A boy whom looks young approaches.

BOY

Two draught schooners please.

GIRL

(LOOKS HIM UP AND DOWN)

ID please.

BOY

Nahhhh C'mon, don't do that.

I get that a lot. Can I see

your ID, you don't look old enough

to work in the bar.

GIRL

(ABOUT TO GET ID)

Okay fine by me.

BOY

(SIGHS)

Fiiiiiine.

(SHOWS ID)

GIRL

hahahaha...you just make it.

Lucky.

2.                      INT: BAR- NIGHT                                                                     2.

GIRL notices BOY comes up again and she serves him again. They just smile

at each other. BOSS takes over order as GIRL has to make a coffee instead.

GIRL

(JOKING)

Be careful, he is just a kid.

BOY

Hey, I'm older than you!

GIRL

(Laughing)

By what six months, big deal!

Boy is laughing as he goes off with his schooners.

3.                     INT: BAR- NIGHT                                                                            3.

BOY comes up a few more times where GIRL has questioned if he can handle 

the next round. They playfully banter and flirt a little  until a time when he comes up and

another person serves him.

BOY

(JOKING)

OHHHHHHH....

I wanted her to serve me.

Though you are also pretty cute.

GIRL

hahahaha...I'll take the compliment

BOY

What did you say?

GIRL

Nothing at all.

(Sweetest smile)

BOY

Yeah that's what I thought.

(LAUGHS)

Yeah you're reallll funny.

GIRL

I know. I'm a funny person.

Boy goes off with order, leaving GIRL blushing and smiling. He is soon to return.

GIRL

What do you want now?

BOY

I need to ask a question.

Don't get too carried away.

GIRL

(RAISES EYEBROW)

I'm not. I'm just curious.

Go on...

BOY

What's your name?

GIRL

My real name?

BOY

Yeah and don't lie to me hahaha

GIRL keeps doing orders and thinks about this question, she never gives out her real name at work.

BOY

Are you gonna just leave me hanging.

GIRL

My name is....

BOY 

NAHHH...you're lying.

GIRL

Nope (LAUGHS) its the truth.

3.             INT. FRONT OF HOUSE- NIGHT                                                               3.

GIRL is coming back from a toilet break. BOY sees her and smiles.

BOY

(TO FRIENDS)

This is her!

GIRL

Mmm...hi.

FRIEND 1

What's your name?

GIRL

I already told him. It wasn't a lie.

FRIEND 1 asks where she is situated and they all try guessing the areas which they aren't even close.

BOY tells her to add him on FB but she just laughs walking off getting back to the bar.

4.                    INT. BAR- NIGHT                                                                                      4.

It is getting late, people are leaving and GIRL is cleaning up the bar. The BOY asks

to be served by her. She goes up and asks what does he want.

BOY

Do you have pockets in those things?

GIRL

(SMILES AND CONFIDENTLY PUTS OUT HER HAND)

 BOY

(HANDS HER SMALL PAPER)

Don't open it until you finish work.

They say goodnight and she goes back to work, curious as to what it will say even though she is pretty sure it is his number. When she gets home they start texting. It was such an unexpected twist into her pretty ordinary day. Something little that made her quite content.

Day 9

I was quite busy yesterday, but ultimately this will act as yesterday's post:

The fun stuff comes when someone isn't strict on sticking to the script.
You're allowed the spontaneity, and great moments can happen
~ Jennifer Aniston

Spontaneity, its quite a unique sounding word in itself, you can say it right or you say it wrong but the best part of the meaning of the word there is neither right or wrong. I don't know about you but I love being spontaneous, I love spontaneity in itself. I'd rather someone just drive past and drop by for a chat or even an hour just to catch up without warning, or making quick decisions like I did yesterday, I had some time before work so I went to a friends house. It was a quick plan...but it changed how I thought my day was going to end up. I was stuck in traffic and though I was pissed off only cause I may have been late to work or if my mum rang and knew I was driving before work I probably would have been scolded, but honestly I didn't care, it made me laugh quite a lot.
I wasn't exactly stressed, I don't get stressed easily but I looked around me and all these other people had to be getting somewhere in a hurt (they were on a freeway) and were stuck too. It made me wonder what lives they lead and so forth, I often do that especially on the train, it makes everything a whole lot more interesting.
Another surprising thing was when a mate of mine was on the train and he ended up being on the same carriage, I told him to come over and we weren't exactly mates and had met once before but we had a good chat. We walked home together, supposedly going the same way and it was nice to be in the company of others that you don't normally speak too. It was quite funny, where we were headed was a straight line and it was a place though ended in a court and had an adjoining little park to another street, he was set on taking to the path and I couldn't quite get it. He said 'roads are for cars and wheels', I said 'who said that' and he ended up saying he did. But that is only because we have been led to believe it is just for cars though nobody is stopping me from walking on the road. I rather not stick to the path that is laid out, I rather make my own path and I think he noticed that.
I just think that if the day takes way more turns then just heading in a straight line it makes life a whole lot more interesting. The spontaneous nature of a day is what is so refreshing. I'm not one for routine and knowing what is going to happen next. Surprise me. That is all.

Day 8

Happiness can exist only in acceptance.
~ George Orwell

Today I had Tafe like usual, it was like any other day, I didn't get to say hello to the Train Man  because he had his head down serving a customer so I just walked on by feeling a little bit bummed but nevertheless I walked with my head held high and a secretive smile crawiling on my lips cause I was quite happy.
I was chosen as First AD and thus the stress and problem solving skills came into play. I just did what I knew to do, i broke it all down and made sure to delegate tasks to people in the crew to help out the director who seemed quite overwhelmed. The poor guy, he made such a good script though and I want to help him make such a good movie. I think we really can!! Someone in my class was watching me float around the room and do my thang so when Cleo said something she said 'Nat is brilliant, she floats around the room this last twenty minutes organising it all, its quite spectacular'. It may have looked that way, I may have looked calm but I had a million things running in my head...the way I like it though. Cleo was impressed.
I got 100% on my camera test, one out of two people :), this made me so incredibly happy that I made my goal and I haven't seen that 100% in so long. It made me just feel overwhelmingly good inside.
If anything could get better, the boys invited me to go to the pub with them, I then invited one of the girls and the acceptance just feels incredible. I feel that the class is really meshing well, we all talk to one another and I don't see much hostility towards one another. We have our shit together and I think we work well as a great team.
The power of acceptance on somebody can make that person's self esteem sky rocket, especially if they have come to a new environment and making new friends seems difficult. It is the same when the girls at my second job accepted me on the very first day. The compliments I never wanted secretly made me feel better about my position and that I could see relationships moving somewhere. To be accepted by my peers felt the same, I now know they don't just tolerate me when they have to but they go out of their way to actually ask me along to things. I don't know if many feel the same, but just the littlest things (like this) mean the most to me.
That is what made my day today!

Day 7

We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, 

who begin to interest us at first sight, 

somehow suddenly, all at once, 

before a word has been spoken.
~Fyodor Dostoevsky

It is quite funny the type of company you can come across when travelling. Just the littlest of encounters to the ones that become regular can brighten your day just like that. I didn't realise it until this morning that every time I get off the train at a particular station, there is this man that I say good morning to every morning and he smiles back saying good morning to me. It is a short passing of time, to many it would seem insignificant, but the day I had orientation I noticed him: older foreign man, stuck in a box of a room all day with candies and junk food surrounding him. I don't think he gets noticed much unless somebody is asking him a question about the trains. From the get go he intrigued me, how did his life lead to this. I know I would be complaining about claustrophobia or something, yet he has a spark in him to keep smiling and greet me back.
I don't know how significant I am to his day, though this is now a regular occurrence, I just thought if I gave this man some attention it may make his day because every morning it makes mine.
Later in the day I was catching the train home and this little girl had just gotten on, came up to me and sat next to me and asked how i was? and what was my name? Though I didn't give her my real name it made me laugh. She didn't care who I was, she didn't care if I was a snob or not. She just said what she wanted to know. I admired that.
Today had shaped into such a lovely day, I don't know if it was the weather or the dress I am wearing, or if it was these accounts I had just relayed, but today was nothing short of spectacular.
Every night for the past couple of days I have tried talking to someone different, it is a good way to get to know people and I have nothing to lose. It is just nice sometimes to talk to strangers or talk to an old acquaintance. But I know that every morning will start off good because of the train man. :)

Day 6

"Children are entitled to their otherness, as anyone is; 
and when we reach them, as we sometimes do, 
it is generally on a point of sheer delight,
 to us so astonishing, but to them so natural"
"While we try to teach our children all about life,
 our children teach us what life is all about."

So today was better than yesterday, it was easier to smile at the Sun and appreciate it for all its worth. It was easier to be genuine to my classmates, it was easier to converse with people without being tense or feeling regretful. It is funny because we have to make ourselves aware of this when a child does not, they are naturally joyful and grateful, they are naturally happy when something good is around. When it is the opposite they cry over it but then its over, and put all their energy into making themselves happy again. Not many adults do that, instead we go in a cycle as if we'd rather stay in this solemn silence because we are too afraid to be happy, and too afraid of that happiness for one second may be taken away. This may hurt, this may be the reason why we don't try yet a child does not think this. They live in the moment, they are happy when they should be happy, they never think of the future events that may take this away from them. It is this innocence that makes them so joyful to be around. We have a lot to learn from children, more than we think we do because it was at that age that everything was at its purest form.

I wanted to talk about children because I was having a good day, I was making it that way. I was laughing and talking as I should. 'Should'...I got home and started some homework and I get this post on my Facebook; that my baby cousin had done a video and he said that he loved me very much. This video made me laugh without thinking, smile without pulling. It was just so natural. He made my day, he didn't know it, he was oblivious to it, but he did; he made my day. It took a thirty second video to change my whole mood around, because no matter how I am feeling, how bad things may seem like it, that little boy loves me with all his heart. That is all that matters.

Day 5

Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, 

but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.

 ~Thích Nhất Hạnh

Today the sun was so bright, it was warming up pretty quick, anybody can notice that. It was such a beautiful day and I heard it is going to be the same all week, or similar too. It is something that I expect because the weather man said so. I expected to be joyful of this weather even though I do love the rain. However, many people are happier when it is brighter and warmer, that is why I like it. Smiles are contagious, if one smiles at you or you smile at them, the action is most likely reciprocated. Though today it felt like it wouldn't be.

I walked into class today, with my head held down and not feeling very well due to some personal matters. I even said to myself ' am missing opportunities when I don't look up'. I felt like I had no idea what i was going to write today because I was expecting today to be full of dismay.

I was wrong. I had accepted a bad day which was my first wrong step. I should have made it better because we are all in control of our happiness. I forgot that evidently.

I worked away the hours but as it was coming to a close I couldn't help but laugh. I am sitting here, head down, working and not talking to anyone, but I wasn't exactly closed off. These people were having conversations that seemed joyful, and it made me want to be a part of that. There is something about my class that makes me instantly happy. I love being around them. As soon as it ended I walked out feeling reality pull me back in.

There was something I had to do, and I should've done it a while ago and it may have fixed all this mess but I spontaneously went and visited someone. Just out of the blue, I was expecting to stay home, mull around and be a little miserable. I thought i shouldn't settle that. I asked a friend and he came along with  me. I wanted this as the start quote but I didn't think it would suit the whole post so I'll put it in now:
 'I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.~ Robert Brault

Anyhow, going on with the story, Driving has always relaxed me, with a good friend and music nothing beats it. I don't know, It was nice to have the company today, it always cheers me up. Just smiling helps even in the darkest times, you don't always feel like it but if you do it, your body learns to be happy. It works for me! Should for you too.
Kind of random all over the place post, but I guess that is how I am feeling. All these little things make me happy, knowing I have friends, knowing that today wasn't as bad as I expected it to be, and knowing I can change it if I want it.

Day 4

Climb the mountains and get their good tidings.  
Nature's peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees. 
 The winds will blow their own freshness into you, and the storms their energy, 
while cares will drop off like autumn leaves. 
 ~John Muir

Do you realise how beautiful a sunset is? Or how the different greens work together to make a breathtaking landscape of wispy trees and and rolling hills? Do you notice the little things that many let pass by; the feel of the wind not its temperature, the way it moves around you. How there are so many different colours to make that one leaf, so many different shades and shapes if you made the time to break it down. I hope you do, really I hope you do.
Today I drove to my grandparents whom live in the countryside. The drive takes around an hour but I honestly don't care. It always has relaxed me as the scenery is so picturesque. Though it is a little dry since the heatwave, when it is a lush green it feels refreshing to look at. A huge difference than the hustle and bustle of the city. Something I like to get away from. But do you appreciate this kind of scenery? I know I do. I just love driving through it, with hills on either side of me, even if it is not at its full beauty. It is still beautiful, the dry grass with speckles of green coming through like new life, if you look closely you can find the beauty in anything.
I sound quite dreamy at the moment, I know I do, but the drive that I just came back from is so beautiful that I have nothing left to say. Sometimes its hard to see, sometimes people say it looks boring but if you are allowing yourself to observe and notice and take the time in your busy schedules to notice, you will see, you will see like me.

Day 3

Just living is not enough
One must have Sunshine, Freedom and a little Flower
- Hans Christian Andersen


The weather is absolutely amazing.  How do I know that, my sunflower has opened up to embrace the weather like I have. The grass has been looking quite dry recently but after these couple of storms and rain showers, everything looks so green. It is just so refreshing to see a garden of green. It is really tranquil and calming.

Instead of eating lunch inside like I usually do I thought I'd spontaneously enjoy the sunshine on the verandah. There was a breeze but it wasn't cool at all. It was perfect.
It would be a waste to not enjoy a day like today and look over at my backyard. For an average house our backyard is quite big. Dad made it look beautiful after all that hard work when we first moved in.
It is like you don't know how it is going to turn out when you first start doing something, it takes effort, determination and a constant motivation and once its done you can just look back on it and feel satisfied.
I sometimes feel like I made this backyard to become what it has, remembering when i was young I'd help weed the whole backyard which was a huge effort in itself. If I didn't help it would've taken longer. So every little thing does help even when you doubt it.
I can't stand being cooped up in a house all day especially with this nice weather and though I'm bogged down with homework I was like Nup! I'm gonna have a well deserved break.

Tip of the day: When there is sunshine, utilise it. You never know when it will come again.

Yeah I know that tip doesn't sound so eloquent as I could've made it out...but oh well you get the jist.

Day 2

And found beauty in the little things
I miss those days
The INNOCENCE
Feeling like everything was great
The world was still beautiful
The world was ours.

This would have been yesterday 1st of March. I was hanging out with a mate today and we were just cruising around, following streets we didn't know wondering where they led. Then we came to a park where we just sat on a bench watching the world go by. It was quite windy but it felt so refreshing I did not mind one bit. It was good to just chill with someone and talk and talk and talk. After quite a while it seemed we went back in his car and we drove.
My mate: (Driving) "IS THAT A SPINNY CUP?"
Me: (Laughing at his enthusiasm) I think it is!"
My mate: (Pulling over) We are so doing that."
The next moment I am in this bright orange cup and we are spinning around and around and around and around. It had made us laugh so much because here are two adults at a kids playground and laughing so hard that I could not breathe.

It was like every little shit thing that was on my mind...had disappeared in that one moment of innocence. I know many would say it was real immature of us, but I think we all should take some time to be a child again. Everything slipped away and it was just me and a mate in the moment of innocence and happiness, instantly everything just became brighter. I was on a natural high the rest of the day.
It is sad we forget what it was like to be a child because of all the pressure of keeping up with the adult way, but I think being a child is a good release, I think it isn't too late to recapture the innocence we once had even if it is only for a moment.

Day 1

Everybody wants happiness,

nobody wants pain
but you can't have a rainbow
without a little rain...

This happened about two days ago but I thought it was worthwhile to put on here.
I reckon it is possible to have the best worst day. Sure everybody has their days. The ones that seem like they are taking forever to end, or that you are in a sitcom and the punches just keep on rolling not in your favour.  But two days ago, I can assure you nothing was getting my way, but each little bad thing didn't seem to build up and up and up till it gets all overwhelming but I realised if this bad thing didn't happen, this surprisingly good thing that made me happy would not have happened either. So here it is...

I told my friend 6 bad things that made my day:

1.my train gets cancelled so i take the earlier one, so i am so early to class i have time to finish my storyboard and am extra prepared for something else.
2. I was in such a weird mood this morning but the people at Tafe just make me laugh so much. Even when I'm down and they don't even know it, something about their energy makes me so happy all of the time. It's sometimes the best three hours of my day.
3. I missed my bus because i was talking to this cute guy but the upside was i had a really good conversation with him. After getting a little frustrated since I had to be somewhere in the afternoon. This older man came and sat next to me at the bus stop and i helped him with actress names and whatnot. It felt good being able to give an older person my knowledge.
4- i was so clumsy today, i was the only one on the platform but there five on the opposite. i was on my tippy toes and i tripped doing ballet steps and i started laughing so much, i turn around and this one guy is laughing so much at me. i made his day haha. Even though I was so embarrassed, laughing makes it all the easier.
5- I was stuck in 15 minutes of traffic stock still cause of roadworks. so i took the time to put music on and i jammed to it haha. I didn't care if the oncoming traffic could see me. I thought what better way to pass the time.

6- this police car followed me all the way to my destination freaking me out so much, until it turned  but i learnt to make myself go exactly the speed limit...that is always a good technique :p

You know what I realised which is even better? That it really wasn't that hard to be happy and laugh at it rather than it taking over your mood. I suggest you try it :)