F.A.M.I.L.Y

Family

Let us just take a moment here and think of the depth of the word. Family. Many correspond the word to 'Blood is thicker than water' but I think different. Sure...family will always stick around and friends come and go whenever they please, but in that phrase nobody said anything about blood. Did they?

OMG. no joke I took a second to think of what was coming next and of course I was scrolling through Facebook and this is what popped up, first on my feed.

Coincidence? I don't believe in them! Hahaha

I was going to say exactly that.  What are the characteristics that bring up the word family? A special bond like no other? People who support you and always want the best for you? People who want to see you happy? People who love you. And that's just it.

I love my family, we may fight sometimes but when the going gets tough they are right there to help me pick up the pieces. They are my light, they are my armour even when I'm most stubborn to not take it, they are the wall that I subconsciously place up. It's them.  But my family extends more than what I may be told is my family.

My sister- official in my eyes and in her mum's eyes- my sister, Oriana. I've hurt her before but we have gotten through it. I don't know how she does it but even though there are times when I think I am the worst person on Earth, she can see through that. She sees something in me that baffles me.  I did my first public vlog today (I will post up and notify once it is uploaded)  and to be totally honest with you I was shit scared because I was  afraid someone was going to complain or something like that. But she gave me strength. It is the small things that count. She went along with it too! She didn't shy away from the camera and it just gave me that much more confidence.

Although she studies on the other side of the country I know I can tell her anything and I know she is always there for me. ALWAYS. 

Her family too! I can feel truly comfortable in there presence, just like family. Her mum treats me like her daughter, even if I have the smallest of scratches from the dog she gets the icepack out and makes me rest my leg on the couch. We are Italian...can you tell haha.

Family, its not who you are related to, it is who you relate to most.

Be the Best You Can Be and Keep Smiling (:

P.S. This is a video I just uploaded today, I think you all can relate too it. If you have any questions or comments make sure you write them down. I wouldn't mind it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKipbLri-Ms&list=TLN3cfgSlpkyV8WnW9o-fmDRI8NKQqGQTv

Run In the Runners Shoes

Hey Guyyyys,

So I'm quite excited because I found out my camera, just my small stills camera does actually shoot is HD whereas my camcorder doesn't and I can't wait to start shooting with better quality.
An update on my channels, I did upload my Footscray City Films Major the other day on my second channel; you can access that via my main channel and it will be under Featured Channels.

If you have any tips on how to make any of what I'm doing better, I am all ears, and as of today I am starting up a vlog to get some variety into my channels.

Today I'm going to be talking about Persistence. Its a huge word with a lot of weight, it means something different to everyone. Anybody can think back to a time where it means the most to them. For me persistence is every day, I've had to have it at a young age. Persistence to strive better, persistence to get better grades, persistence to show all those doubters what I am really made of.  I remember in year 8 I wanted an acting agent (yeah i did some stuff- mostly extra) and my parents wouldn't allow it. I persisted for TWO years, I gathered all the facts, the business end of it as well so when my parents had questions I could answer them and it only left them to say yes.

When I was in year 8 I auditioned for a school musical, safe to say I was pretty shit but it only persisted me to try even harder the next year. In year 9 I became part of the Ensemble for Beauty and the Beast and I even scored a main character in Rebel without a Cause! From then on each audition I just gave it all I got and in the end it paid off.

Through out my life I've persisted a lot. My motivation are my doubters. They are the fire!

But it really has got to do with this youtube stuff. I have been working really hard trying to figure out the best channel art that will capture my channel the most, the best links, how to do a logo and backgrounds because although my channel isn't that serious, I want to be taken seriously. I want to bring some entertainment to people- even though some may call me narcissistic. So many can't see the long hours I put into it, trying to learn how to do things, and what things are effective. I am persisting though. I know like this blog not many people actually follow it. But I have hope that one day people will like it. It honestly brings a smile to my face when I have even 1 view...am I sad? haha

Anyway I hope you can help me out, I'm not looking for fame or fortune, I'm just trying something out and decided I actually like this.

Be the Best You Can Be and Keep Smiling (:

IM ON YOUTUBE

Hi Guys,
I haven't been on this in agggges. I know. i knooooow. I am such a slacker. A flaker, and sooo so much more. But you know what, I am not giving up on this. If I give up I don't get satisfaction and all those people who did not believe in me, saying that this was just a phase would get that satisfaction.

I don't want that. Do you?

Besides, to be totally honest with you I started listening to people that I thought were like God...ha...ha. Not really, but I did have high regard for them. They thought all of this stuff was narcissistic. Well it is safe to say that they are out of my life now.

Sad. Sad. But also quite healthy. I am much happier, I have a much clearer head and I just wanna keep blogging. I don't care if I whine but I know people will read this and take something away from it.  I can't say I am a different person, but I can say I have opened some places within myself that had not seen the light of day, making me shine like a better person.

I am healthier. I am happier. I am free.

I also have continued with Youtube, I had given up on it at one point. GAAAAHHH NAT WHY OH WHY. But Alas, my stubborness that actually helps at times....at times...has made me continue and keep trying. I do enjoy it and it is helping me edit and it is helping me keep on a point and not getting too complex with ideas. This will help me with my school films.

So I have two channels one; Nataleigh Maree which has singing, vlogs, tags and a bunch of randomness from yours truly. I really wanna take off in this social media stuff because it can help me in the future with my career and to be honest it is one of my passions. LET THE FIRE BURN. two; Nataleigh Elzein, it is going to turn into my Production Company (that needs a name). It has my films that I have made during Cert iv and will have all my films for y'all to view.

So please watch these links, let me know what you think. Give me tips. I AM THIRSTY FOR TIPS. TTIIIIIIPPPPSSSS. Hahmmm...anyways. The links are below, thank you for being a silent support but if you wanna talk I'm sure there is a way to do it on here.

I will also link you to my instagram, i do not have twitter or tumblr otherwise id have links for those too.
So it is safe to say I am staying around for a huge year next year and for the years to come. Love you all (whoever does read this).

Be a better you and keep smiling (:

http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9-D5291DyVpVrhv-pijCYA
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU2M2wQSzThWxRIf1mDD1hQ
http://instagram.com/nataleighmaree

Like Breathing Air

Hey there!
Just finished another shoot, was not as hectic although it felt like all the disasters that could happen, did happen.
My car for one has this dent and a few scratches from me misjudging the area to turn into. And then the guard underneath the car kind of fell apart because of someone who was not I tried to reverse it over a mound. Then there was hail the next day, a huggge hail storm it was quite beautiful, the next day was unusually smooth.
This post is about things happening for a reason.
I was in my car the other day and I had stopped at a stop light like every good driver would do. It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining and it felt like Spring. I was drifting my attention to this tree and I realised that that tree's purpose is to give out oxygen for us to live, to be a home for animals etc. Then I realised I guess everything has a purpose. For instance the aforementioned.  I realised if I didn't listen to people about driving forward at that angle and listened to my guard it wouldn't have happened, i realised that telling the truth to the parentals about it they ended up  not caring or being angry, that if it hails one day it will be sure to shine again the next, patience  is the key. Taking each step as it comes.
I went further into thinking about purposes, for instance people in your life, 'you are the choices you make' everything comes with a purpose. A person may be there to make you realise something about yourself or society itself, a person may be there in a time when you're in need. Life is a great mystery but it is a great learning curve in itself.
I laugh at the fact my life feels like a musical whenever I'm thinking of something a particular song comes on and it feels so right to be the backing track of the scene. It is there to remind you of something. To make you feel something. I don't believe in coincidence. That is just me.
The people you are friends with are there for a purpose. The people who stay still have their purpose to keep fulfilling or to fulfil.
It is only when you mess with this that things don't go smoothly.  When you take a friend out of the equation that wasn't meant to be and you doing it for the wrong reasons even though you think it is the right thing, this is when things don't go the way you once had thought.  Their purpose is still there.

My piece of advice? I know you didn't ask for it. Let it all be, let it all take its natural course and if someone is being shit to you and you do ignore them then it should feel right. If it feels wrong it most likely is wrong especially after a month. Go with your gut. If you care, you are caring for a reason and I personally don't think you should fight yourself about that even if you think caring for someone particular is stupid.

Man I think I just realised a few things for myself. Thanks guys! I'm such an idiot hahaha and hasn't seen what is right in front of me and has been blaring at me for three weeks.

Standing Upright

So...how are you all? *waits for reply*
...*crickets*
Yeahhh worth a shot. So yesterday and the day before I have been on set. I'm a film student to all who do not know. My role yesterday was to be a Second AD and the best part was connecting and talking with all the extras who I am supposed to be in charge of. I had chosen them from a website called Star Now and I must admit they were the loveliest bunch of people to work with. I'm usually First AD so Second AD was new territory for me but I soon realised that I am actually good at socialising. Whatta a skill you say? I KNOW!! I've always been shy with new people but I realised that I do have some of my dad's qualities; he can talk to anyone, and soon a stranger becomes a friend. I was also surprised how out there I was. It felt good to be genuine around people because they then see that you won't judge them. The other greatest part, especially last night was the weather.
The weather was absolutely calming. It didn't get cold, it was so comfortable and reminded me of a nice Summer night when my mates would take me for drives before I got my P's. It had that sweet smell in the air. It was great!
Unlike today...
Today is as gloomy as the dead of winter. I honestly don't mind Winter but I have been likening to this Spring weather, so to take a step back so suddenly was annoying. Also when you are in a bad mood the gloomy weather doesn't help. So I sat there and I thought what should I do.  I knew I wasn't in the mood to actually watch TV all day. I wanted to have a smile on my face and feel like I hadn't wasted the day. Instead I thought I'd exercise a bit. I had the time. As I was doing it since I haven't in a while I started feeling healthier, I had a healthy breakfast and lunch so I was feeling good about myself. They don't lie; endorphins are a great asset to have especially on days like this.
As mentioned in earlier posts I am getting over someone, and people out there I think it is safe to say everybody has been in this situation. Well that person called and it took all my effort to just let it ring. They called three times on Tuesday and once today so far. I was questioning my motive behind the cold front which wasn't good at all and I nearly called back but the restraint reminded me of the strong will power I used to have and being able to stick to my morals and values, well that just made my day a whole lot better. Although it hurt for that brief ten minutes, it was rewarding as the day progressed.
Be around those people who make you happy, and although he did, when I wasn't I was not happy and that my friends is not healthy!
Anyway enough for today. I hope everybody is having a great time, keep smiling because you deserve it.

Happiness is a CHOICE

So..I was in such a shit mood today, I forgot my good luck charm, I slept in...had to get up at 5am for a shoot and well the shoot was more stressful than it should be, me running around doing jobs that weren't mine.
Then of course when I got home I was gonna go onto my other blog, to blog about heartbreak and that even though it hurts, no matter how much it hurts, if it is good for you in the long run, it will be worth it and you won't have to feel that again from that person.
Then something happened: My friends Daniel and Lidija channel, they do videos to make people happy and it is called ThisWeekWe... https://www.facebook.com/pages/Thisweekwe/334950059983717  (The link). http://www.youtube.com/user/ThisWeekWe (Youtube link) Every week they make a video about something and the aim no matter how silly the content is to make people smile. If it weren't for their videos I would have been writing a depressing poem right about now and listening to sad ballads.
You know what I learnt, 'HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE'. It is a quote from  Daniel's inspiration, Shay, who has a youtube channel and blog every day. I like this quote also because it is so true. I chose  to be happy, I could have bathed in my own bleakness or I could try and be happy.
It goes hand in hand with my previous blog entry. If you want it, go get it and nobody is stopping you but you. It also has inspired me to get my youtube channel to keep going. I don't think I am that funny or am a good singer or have good advice but I try to give some sort of entertainment for people, my friends brought me that, sometimes you just need it. In return I knew they would get far with this because in the end it is a great cause. Who doesn't want to make someone else feel good? And you know what, without knowing it until told I made their day also.  It only takes a person to believe in the other because everybody wants to feel like they have a value.

I'm not sure if this made sense at all! But that is all I got for now. Short and sweet and probably not to the point  :p

SHOUT OUT TO LIDIJA MY TWIN AND DANIEL MY '"OLDER" BROTHER'

Turning a New Leaf

I'm back. I bet you don't believe me because I go away for so long. I bet you think that I don't hold to my word very much and you know what lately I've had a hard time doing just that.
Lately, I've just let it pass. I get angry and I get over it. That may be all good and well but if you are not giving yourself any self value you would probably stand up for yourself more. I feel like an elastic band that has been stretched way to much that I'm on the verge of snapping. This year has had its highs and lows but I think it just needs a new take on things.
I've had so much time to think lately and I knew I could never be truly happy when things were manifesting in my life that would drag me down and like any tumor you cut it out. The only way to get better. I realised that is what I have to do. Sure it will be painful and I know that, I've tried before. But all cuts will heal, no matter how deep they go.
Best way to let go of someone:
1. change their name to 'Do Not Answer' in your contacts (or delete them)
2. All your diaries put in a box somewhere you won't want to go back to
3.With all the photos put in a folder that says DO NOT OPEN
4. Ignore all contact.

Sure you are probably thinking why don't you just chuck it all out, but then you are chucking out a piece of yourself...I reckon take the lessons you learn and ditch the shit that came along with them.

I'm turning a new leaf, ripe and ready for Summer. Starting the blog again, is going to be a commitment which I will try harder to keep. I have my real friends and I've ditched everyone else. I have my family and I have my car to go anywhere and everywhere and most importantly I have my old self back.

It is good to be back!