Day 6 - What are you afraid of

Simple. Abandonment and being replaced.

I used to be afraid of someone seeing the real me, all the bad ugly things that I try to hide. I didn't like being so vulnerable and exposed. Now, its just the people that mean most to me, leaving as they always do. May not be their fault or mine but it happens one way or another because that is how life handed it to me.

I hate being the second choice. The one people go to when all else fails that is why I have trust issues. I always think, how long is this going to last, will this one stay, why do they seem to like me so much something is going to happen, I'm going to ruin this I can feel it.

But that may just be me.